It been a year!

Looking back i see... its been a year! Not a reason for celebration. So it time to roll up the sleeves and begin again! Give the word mute a definitive definition. :)

THE FAMILY TREE

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A Family tree...... in part i must say!! i just got three generations... have been waiting to do the full tree... by the time i get to the roots... i'll be six feet under.. ;)

INW

Thanks to two of my friends I got hooked onto this site, became a member... and with every picture that is put up... I wanna go out there and shoot and make some of my own. It will take a while. But i know INW will be a grt source of inspiration. The people make it special too!! THANKS INW!! INW

I'm learning real skills that I can apply throughout the rest of my life ... Procrastinating and rationalizing.

Cease...FIRE!!

The heart burn with the fury of things lost the moments and time we spent in the past i lost myself in you and your art, only to be reminded that you were far apart. it was for keeps and so we thought.. we were meant to be. For you were my life, my soul, my existence, my love... Well you were from thoughts of the past.

Moral Bullshit!!!

So, Mutalki decided I was bad because i go to a PUB, because I drink.... moro he'll have a problem with me wearing chaddi's.... its not a part of the INDIAN CULTURE u see!! So when men watch porn and drink its culture? but darlings... for women its not!!! We are to be the ones who can watch porn at home to please the husband...... but not by ourselves.... its not moral fiber!!! So do we or do we not have our own minds??

Rape of the lock

Or should I say locks.... that's what I feel every time I go to a salon and snip the ends of my hair. I try hard to grow my hair and keep it to a certain length (long actually!!) but after a certain point it starts to feel heavy on my head. Like a weird gravitational pull. Leaving me with a heavy head and a clouded mind. I try not to think of it and carry on until I cant bear it any longer; and then I go to the salon and chop it off to a "style" that will make me look good... for perhaps a day or two and then somehow, strangely enough I go back to looking the same.. with just a little load off my head. Most of us (i.e. me and some of my friends) project our anger on our hair, cut it off when we are particularly angry with ourselves or something around us. The load that gets of my head the day I get a haircut is like a thrill, not just relaxing my heavy head but also my heavy mind. The length does not really matter. Its about the relief!! A rejuvenated self, like a snake shedding off its skin. I cant remember the first time i actually tried it and was happy, but i sure do know it works well for me. Tough I get a haircut only once or maybe twice in a year I feel the pressure off my head, and a guilt for chopping it off. More so because my mom disapproves the idea of a haircut. But its just one of the things that I do, without really wanting to do so. And my hair becomes the relenting victim to my abuse.

Complicated!!

There are some of us who have a knack of complicating things, and being completely stubborn and oblivious to others telling us what to do or how to handle the situation. We take pleasure in punishing ourselves for what happened. Doing things that will complicate our lives a lot more and put us into the dumps. We take pleasure in being depressed thinking about what happened!!!! the concept of KISS!! will never mean anything to us (KEEP IT SIMPLE STUPID!!!).